I'm Sorry Heart=(

"Heart"

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you
I’m sorry for the things I’ve put you through
Before you start to break on me or ask for sympathy
I need to make you see

Oh, heart, I’m not sure it’s been long enough
To say that what I feel is really love
There’s just one way to learn, sometimes we’ll get hurt
And right now it’s our turn

Give it time, help me through
Heart, we can do this together
You’re my strength, you’re my soul
I need you now more than ever

Heart, all the hurt will soon be gone
If you’ll, if you’ll just keep on being strong
You will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in
And we’ll find love again

Give it time, help me through
Heart, we can do this together
You’re my strength, you’re my soul
I need you now more than ever

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you
I’m sorry for the things I put you through
Please don’t you break on me, I need to make you see
It wasn’t meant to be

‘Cause you will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in
And we’ll find love again

I'm a Princess~~~

Originally named Sarai, The Lord renamed her Sarah, meaning princess, after she had married Abraham. Sarah became the mother of Isaac and through Isaac the grandmother of Jacob, who God renamed Israel. Sarah is therefore one of the ancestors of all of the Israelites, and of Jesus Christ. In God's Own Words:

"And God said unto Abraham, As for Sarai thy wife, thou shalt not call her name Sarai, but Sarah shall her name be. And I will bless her, and give thee a son also of her: yea, I will bless her, and she shall be a mother of nations; kings of people shall be of her." (Genesis 17:15-16)

"I will bless her, and she shall be a mother of nations; kings of people shall be of her"

Sarah was about ten years younger than her half-brother Abraham (they had the same father, but different mothers, see Genesis 20:12). They were married before they left Ur, located in what is today southern Iraq (i.e. both Abraham and Sarah were Iraqi, an incredible irony considering the state of Middle East tensions today) for a journey, under The Lord's guidance, to a new land that would become the focus of God's plan of salvation for all of humanity (Genesis 11:29-31).

When Abraham and Sarah remained childless into their old age, Sarah took it upon herself to have children through a surrogate, her Egyptian handmaid Hagar. Sarah made the arrangement despite the Lord's earlier promise to Abraham that he would have children through Sarah (see Genesis 17:15-16, quoted above). The result of Sarah's initiative with Hagar was that Hagar also had a son of Abraham, Ishmael, who became the progenitor of many of the Arab people of today. The family conflict between Sarah and Hagar, and their sons Isaac and Ishmael, never ended; the struggle between them continues to this very day.

Sarah lived to the age of 127 years (the only female in written Bible History in which her age at death is recorded) and died at Hebron, southwest of Jerusalem.

Other spellings include: Sara and Sera from what I've seen, but we all know the correct way of spelling it *wink* *wink* Thanks......Sarah~~*
*~~Sarah in Hawaiian is pronounced "Kala" also meaning princess~~*

Documenting...not publishing=p

Forgive me ***..can't help it.Want to post this...Author's name = undisclosed!!

This poem is based on the meanings from Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa's OST..been given some 'personal touches'..Nonetheless..its sweet~~Love 'Sedetik Lebih' and love this POEM..

Thank you ***....=)


As I'm sitting at the edge of a creek,
Waiting for you to come,
The Shadows of the past dance through my mind,
The silhouette of a woman so caring and kind,

One, who held my hand,
On my own two feet she made me stand.
Fought my fears alongside her own
And nay, they were all wrong, they must condone,

Our Love is pure, not blind
That to me you have shown,
I can see clearly now, in my reflection.
Two souls entwined with a great deal of affection
And I say this not like words on a paper sheet
My love, if you must know
With every single breath I breathe
With every single skipped heartbeat.
There's one thought that always lingers in my mind
Is it fate or luck, that someone like you I was to find?
A companion, a lover of a different kind.
As if amongst coal, a diamond was mined.

My love, your heart is mine
But this selfish love needs the rest of you
Cuz every time I'm lost in thought.
Without a doubt I'm thinking of you.

I Dream the same dream every night,
Eternal love and not a single fight.
Amidst the rain and thunder I would hold you tight.
not let you feel even a glimpse of fright.
And in the Silence before the storm
I would grasp you in my arms and keep you warm
Gaze at your glistening eyes
In where there is no place for lies.

Your smile and the gentle touch of your fingertips,
That amazing feeling, every time we kiss,
Brings me back to life every night.
I need you my love, only then I feel alive

You give me a reason to live,
And I'll never let you love me less.
cuz you give me a new meaning to life
When I'm surrounded with war, death and sickness.

If Forever is over it won't stop me from loving you,
Time can wait cuz there's one last thing I need to tell you

It doesn't matter if I lose everything in this world
And turn to boot's dust in people's eyes
It doesn't matter if I live the life of a king or pauper
Or have all the riches in the world by saying lies.

I know money can never make me happy
You're the only one who can
No amount of Gratitude will make up for your company
I'll stick with you no matter what, you'll see!

It doesn't matter if the world thinks we’re not meant to be
But I can say this with certainty
Nothing really matters
Nothing does,
Nothing as long as I still have you
Nothing as long as I still Love you,
You’re the only one I need, of that I'm sure.
And I can say this a hundred times or more
And I’ll still want an encore, my love
I love you and I know as we grow
I'll only grow to love you more

I need a DOCTOR

This morning as I was waiting in the ERL station heading to work,I plugged in my earphones to my phone and listened to the songs that Muiz just transferred to the memory card last night.A song I need a doctor by Eminem really caught my attention.At first I thought it was a tragic love song..some sort of misery tried to be expressed between the lyrics.But hey,to my surprise it wasn't.It's a song that Eminem wrote for his mentor Dr DRE..For his mentor?Mentor = teacher = guru..This time i supposed that Dr Dre was having a bad time,Eminem tried to build up his mentor's spirit once again with this poetry of his.You might want to search for the song on youtube.Love the music and melody in this song.The moral from this is eventhough someone seems superior than you,he is still human...he needs support..he will have his share of misfortunes sometimes..We need each other to push and pull each other through good and bad times.Love you all=)

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

[Eminem]
I told the world, one day I would pay it back.
Say it on tape and lay it, record it, so that one day I could play it back.
But I don't even know if I believe it when I'm saying that.
Doubt startin' to creep in, everyday it's just so grey and black.
Hope, I just need a ray of that
'Cause no one sees my vision
When I play it for 'em, they just say it's whack.
But they don't know what dope is.
And I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this.
All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest.
You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you.
But for the life of me, I don't see why you don't see like I do.
But it just dawned on me; you lost a son. Demon's fightin' you, it's dark.
Let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you.
I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue.
'Cause me and you, were like a crew. I was like your sidekick.
You gon' either wanna fight when I get off this f-cking mic,
Or you gon' hug me. But I'm out of options, there's nothing else I can do cause...

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

[Eminem]
It hurts when I see you struggle.
You come to me with ideas.
You say they're just pieces, so I'm puzzled.
'Cause the sh-t I hear is crazy,
But you're either getting lazy, or you don't believe in you no more.
Seems like your own opinions, not one you can form.
Can't make a decision, you keep questioning yourself,
Second guessing, and it's almost like your begging for my help.
Like, I'm YOUR leader.
You're supposed to f-cking be MY mentor.
I can endure no more!
I demand you remember who you are!
It was YOU, who believed in me,
When everyone was telling you, don't sign me.
Everyone at the f-cking label, lets tell the truth.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/i-need-a-doctor-lyrics-eminem.html ]

You risked your career for me, I know it as well as you.
Nobody wanted to f-ck with the white boy...
Dre, I'm crying in this booth.
You saved my life, now maybe it's my time to save yours.
But I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more.
But I ain't giving up faith, and you ain't giving up on me.
Get up Dre! I'm dying, I need you, come back for f-ck's sake

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

[Dr Dre]
It literally feels like a lifetime ago
But I still remember the sh-t like it was just yesterday though
You walked in, yellow jump suit
Whole room, cracked jokes
Once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
Went through friends, some of them I put on
But they just left, they said was riding to the death
But where the f-ck are they now
Now that I need them, I don't see none of them
All I see is Slim
F-ck all you fairweather friends
All I need is him
F-cking backstabbers
When the chips were down, you just laughed at us
Now you bout to feel the f-cking wrath of aftermath, faggots
You gon' see us in our lab jackets and ask where the f-ck we been?
You can kiss my indecisive ass crack maggots and the crackers ass
Little cracker jack beat making wack math,
Backwards producers, I'm back bastards
One more CD and then I'm packing up my bags and as I leave
And I guarantee they'll scream, Dre don't leave us like that man cause...

[Chorus]
Im about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

Add Sunshine to your life..

The clock shows 5.16 pm.Short of 42 minutes to 6pm.When the clock strucks 6,we pack our bags and leave for home.Not today Anna!!! You came late,so you're going home late today.Of course not too late to catch the forex news tonight=)

The grey sky outside shows signs of heavy rain to come. I love the rain,but I hate getting wet. Rain doesnt really work for me. Everytime this kind of weather visits my day,they leave without failing to suck out the energy in me.I'm as gloomy as the weather.

Here I sit in my chair wrapped with a kashmirian pashmina,eating a KitKat bar.I'm thinking of what I'm going to write now. Since extracting data from AirAsia Go's database seems very uninviting and I already got pissed off with the company's PC in front of me,on which I am typing this entry with,I decided to write anything that comes to my mind.

What is in my mind now?Hurm..I was wondering and have been wondering what's it like to be REALLY working.Truthfully and honestly,now,I'm so bummed with working.Hate it.So boring.If my internship is already giving me a lot of reasons to avoid the working world,i reckon the real situation could be worse than this.

Ok..Imagine this.Waking up every morning,driving along the same highway,making the same turns at junctions,listening to the same breakfast show on the radio,parking in the same parking lot,sitting on the same chair,in front of the same computer,and meeting the same people everyday.God!!! What a routine!! ..and Anna never likes routine.

But then,if i keep hating things and not start loving, I'll never gain anything.Ok Anna,you need to stop complaining. These 'routines' have made me learn so many new things.Sometimes,its not what is being given to you everyday,it is more of what you get.A simple example on how we can educate ourselves everyday would be to intentionally seek the good out of things.Seek for knowledge.For example,you go to a class.The lecturer speeks of one subtopic today.Every student gets the same information from the lecturer..but what makes a student better than the others?..is by how they absorb the knowledge,digest it,analyze it and most important of all apply it.Life itself is a learning field.An educational institution itself.We can alleviate our lives,improve it just by trying to look at things the different way.

Trust me,views do make difference in driving lives. If we have a good mind set,we can achieve more and higher than we ever expected in our lives. Try wearing on a positive mind.You will see the difference.Motivation works best if it comes from our inner-self itself=)

Scared

Dear Anna,
I know what's going on in your life.Moving on is really trying,staying in the same spot is tormenting.At this point you're very scared of getting hurt once again. You know how hard it is to be mending yourself when you yourself is already bleading.

Dear Anna,
would you give yourself another chance? Big Baby did tell you about Thomas Edison.The non-giving up human. Success blooms out of failures no matter how small the success bud would be..it'll still make through if enough sun and water given.

Dear Anna,
would you be brave like you used to be?I know your secrets Anna.Anna,what doesn't kills you makes you stronger..Anna,listen to your heart..Don't rush things.Let everything fall into place..

Dear Anna,
PRAY...and PRAY...Anna,when the time comes..bring your joy and love back home.We'll see whether it can be the love and joy of the family too..Anna,why are you so gloomy?Why do you post this kind of writing?

Anna,
be happy again..please do..

Missing..

I'm Missing THE HAPPY ANNA..

I used to write a lot in my teenage days.Now that I'm an adult,writing doesn't excite me that much anymore.Lacking of inspiration may be part of the reason that my feelings don't interpret into words anymore.

I used to write of nature...of behaviours..or anything I capture and see.Anything that the eyes of Anna would see...

..and today Anna is writing because she sees how much she has become to be a boring person..Anna was so much full of words and expression..why did Anna change?? Maybe Anna has forgotten the values she carried once inside..a some sort of ego in her is missing..

Anna...search for it again.Search within yourself.Its not about writing.Its more to know how you feel inside and care of what you think..

Anna..your words matters.If not to others but to yourself.Words can help you go by any obstacles in life..words help you realize your mistakes..talk to yourself Anna..I'm missing you..

Anna the strong heart...=)